Up to this point, I’ve maintained this very quiet persona, the consciousness reminders, peace, and love, elevating the vibrational levels… Its how I choose to live my life, but I’m a human and I have very human moments that take me out of consciousness, crashing down into low-level emotions like anger, jealousy and aggression.

A few years ago, I might have believed that those moments were hormonal or reactionary, certainly just human. But are they entirely? Could it be some other influence at work? Having done extensive work with my clients with house clearings, energetic healing and spirit release, I can say with complete confidence that it can be something more, more often than you might think.

For dark energy, demonic energy, and random ill-tempered ghosts, living human energy is an e-ticket attraction…

Don’t think for one minute that they don’t hitch a ride from time to time to get a quick fix. Unfortunately, when they find not only a willing host but one who’s natural vibration level matches their own, they tend to hang out awhile longer.  As you might imagine, this parasitic relationship can wreak havoc in the life of the host. There are no consequences for the spirit attachment when you fly off the handle with road rage, drive drunk, or fight with your spouse. They sit back and drink in all the vitriol and venom that your soul puts out when you’re afraid, angry or hurt. The host is lunch, and when more people get dragged into your drama, it becomes a buffet.

Think of it this way: on cold mornings,  you run out to start the car. You don’t stay because who wants to sit in a freezing car? So you run back inside, leaving the car to idle and warm up in the driveway, unattended. A moment later, someone walking in the cold sees your car, running unattended, warm and ready to drive! They hop in behind the wheel and take it wherever they need to go! They might only need to get to the local bar 6 blocks away, but hey? why not take the car? You aren’t using it…

Humans spend most of their time OUTSIDE their bodies… The body is dense, ungainly, often painful and sometimes its just hard to stay in your center. When you aren’t driving, someone else can take the wheel.

So am I talking about possession? Not specifically. The influence of dark energy is called oppression, left to stay too long, it can, in extreme cases become full possession. Particularly when the host becomes too weak or depleted from the weight of the influence. In a case of full possession, the host ‘becomes’ the personality of the dark energy, and that energy begins to manifest at the risk of the life of its host.

While this might be leaping too far off into paranormal land, I have a point that leads back to my original focus.

Dark energy cannot preside over a conscious soul.

Even in moments of human-ness, we can recognize that we aren’t driving, and re-claim the driver’s seat. Declare your dominion over your body and kick out the interloping energy. When you see some news story about an abusive parent, when you find yourself raising an angry finger at the driver in front of you, when you have a choice to fly off the handle or be rational… remember who might be behind the wheel. Does this behavior belong to you? Calmly, consciously, re-claim your vehicle and get on with your life.

Namaste,

~L

This weekend, I had the privilege to attend the 2nd annual Chicks Who Click Denver 2010 conference here in Denver. A gathering of like-minded women on the move in the Social Media world, I predict CWC will be a powerhouse in the very near future! What was so amazing, and what resonated by far for me, was that most of us were entrepreneurs who had been something/someone else for most of our lives, finally moving out of a pre-packaged ideal and becoming… REAL.

One of our amazing speakers, Shelly Kramer, gave us a cool little gift: A stone with the word ‘Real’ written on it. She’d done it herself, not run out and bought them at some metaphysical bookstore, and you could feel her in the stones. The point was a reminder that no matter who we were representing, whichever hat we were wearing, we needed to remain REAL… I loved it.

Before I went to the conference, I worried over how I was going to represent. What did I have to offer? I don’t have letters behind my name, I wasn’t working in the field that I had my degree, and I was feeling a bit ill-defined. I speak a great deal about consciousness, and I was hyper-conscious about being thought of as a little ‘woo-woo’ in a room of highly accomplished women. There goes that ego again… and I was wrong. When I was reminded to be real, it shut down my ego, and I found MY accomplished voice in that room of highly accomplished women.

I know I wasn’t the only person who felt that way. This world of social media can be more than overwhelming, especially for those of us in a period of reinvention. The thread that moved in that all-day event was the we are here to support each other to become more real, putting away the traditional roles and creating new ones, often walking away from comfort zones of what we think we should be doing in favor of uncharted paths of  self-invention. These women were risk-takers, pioneering voices in a world on full-tilt, deciding the who, what, why and when in their world. That is not the ‘norm’… it is the ‘new’ and it feels really good.

My beautiful little sister is in her own period of reinvention. She is a new mommy, loving every minute of that role, but she has many other facets that are trying to shine as well. How does she let people know that she’s not only a Realtor, but a residential appraiser, and that credential alone will make her a better Realtor in a sea of Realtors? What I learned at CWC is that she needs to show people her hilarious sense of humor, flash that genuine smile even when she’s cold-calling a lead, be that great listener where other Realtors can’t be bothered to engage, provide that knowledge base and share truth, not fantasies about her industry. She needs to  interview her clients, not the other way around… she is too good to just take anyone, and she will be the one to separate the wheat from the chaff… All by being real.

And who am I…really?

I am one voice, highly accomplished, worthy of being heard, in a world of highly accomplished women. As my dear friend and amazing speaker at CWC, Melanie Mills, reminded us:

“IT ONLY TAKES ONE IDEA, ONE FRIEND, ONE DREAM AND ONE LEAP OF FAITH TO CHANGE EVERYTHING FOREVER.”

I made many new friends this weekend…and I see all of them as they are… 100% real…

Namaste,

~L

I’ve been vibrating really intensely lately. Waking up with headaches (no not CO poisoning or late-night hits on the liquor cabinet) and feeling a general malaise and apathy towards my day. This condition seems to be aggravated by world events, particularly catastrophes like we’ve seen in Haiti, political upheavals, economic crisis, and the polarization occurring all around us.

The vibration is subtle, sometimes radiating from one particular chakra, usually the first or second, which makes me feel like I swallowed a cellphone. Other times, the vibration will wake me from a dead sleep, all over my body, as though a train or some other large vehicle was rumbling down my street. The vibrations can go for days, or intermittently, as a phone set to vibrate would. So what is it? Is it literally some kind of primitive alarm clock going off? The fabled biological clock gone 21st century? Or a direct line to the earths energetic grid as it tears and vibrates all over? Could be…

The world is taking a hard shift right now, and it is my belief that physical anomalies like my silly cell phone problem are just one manifestation of how it affects all of us. Some people are experiencing headaches, flu-like symptoms, depression, and elevated aggression or even violent behavioral outbursts. Haiti is 3000 miles away, but its aftershocks are felt on multi-dimensional levels, levels that have no time, space or distance from us.

Taking into account all that we are experiencing in this country and throughout the world, it might be time to start bolstering our ‘psychic immunity’ especially when we become completely fear motivated as a result of events that we cannot possibly control.

Naturally, in times of crisis, people are drawn together seeking some kind of sanctuary. Unfortunately, they come to it out of fear, and that fear vibration is what they resonate instead of consciousness.

I recently read a blog from noted spiritual teacher and channeler, Tom Kenyon. His channeled words from the Hathors, a group of inter-dimensional, inter-galactic beings, are intriguing to anyone experiencing the planetary shifts on a physical and psychic level.

Go here to read more: http://tomkenyon.com/hathors-archives

Tom talks extensively about raising our vibration level to create a buffer with the changes that are in action and still to come… What’s best is that anyone can do it! The vibration level he speaks of is quite different than my cell phone feeling. This is a non-physical vibration; it is your soul vibration or your personal resonance with the world around you. You don’t have to be a psychic or practitioner to build some solid defenses by raising your soul vibration, and it can be achieved by simply being appreciative of the amazing life you have in this dimension.

Spirituality evolves when our vibrational levels are synced with that of the Universe. Just because you decided to ‘Get God’ doesn’t mean you are evolving personally. Coming to a new spiritual realization should come without fear, and by your free will.

Moving out of desperation or fear-based motivation into consciousness is a matter of literally ‘rising above’ the current circumstances. Raising your vibration level will serve to protect you from the distractions of any internal or external fears. Know what you can control in your world, and keep the rest in your peripheral.

-Being aware of the world around you is important, but don’t let it take over. Stay away from late news in particular and go to bed with clarity.

-Before you hit the pillow, write one or two things you are grateful for. Read them to yourself, or share it with your significant other.

- Don’t judge someone for being aloof but turn it around in kindness and without expectation.

-Try to eat, speak and interact consciously. Stand outside yourself and watch how you perform in the world.

-Be lighter! Laugh at everything with reckless and joyful abandon.

-You are not that important. Be graceful and humble in the melee, don’t add your drama where it isn’t needed.

We can arrive closer to God or source when we are conscious beings. Allowing external fear to drive us to God is not our free will, but a vehicle for dark energy to distract us. We cannot control all things outside of us, only what is happening inside of us. Rise above…

Namaste,

~L

So, I’m new to the whole social media thing, but I’m enjoying Twitter immensely! Case in point: The guilty pleasure of the  1 degree of separation and the VERIFIED celebrity account…  I had to have Ashton Kutcher, not because I care so much, but because he is THE celebrity twitter icon, right? I’m also close personal friends with Jim Carey, Mariel Hemingway, Moby, Stephen Colbert, Amanda Palmer and Neil Gaiman… also, Yoko Ono…

Yoko Ono invites her followers to ask questions every Friday. She then goes through and answers 10-15 of them and posts them on her site. I thought this was pretty cool, and wondered what kind of question would get a guaranteed response from her. There were already a couple of hundred questions, and many seemed sort of stupid… “What did John Lennon eat for breakfast?” one inquisitive follower wanted to know. I scoffed, but seriously… I now know it was a traditional Japanese breakfast, or sometimes a macrobiotic one…Hmmm…

That’s kind of how it went, and I honestly believe she answered everyone’s questions, no matter what… Anyway, back to my dilemma: What to ask a 20th century icon? Why did I care what she had to say at all? Well, why the hell not?…

Since I’m committed to consciousness focus in 2010, and Yoko and John were known for their activism and peace focus, I wanted to know this:

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“If John were here, do you think that the two of you would help shift consciousness more effectively than in the 70’s?”

Yoko Ono
“As we said then, don’t rely on a few so-called heroes. The world as we know is too complex for one or two heroes to move it. It is time (that) all of us must become heroes. Get down deep into your subconscious, and bring out the wisdom and courage sleeping there.”

This was really, really interesting. And important. Not because of who said it, but that it was said at all. I hold the truth that we need to exorcise FEAR from our world right now, and move into COURAGE. There are so many distractions that keep us enslaved to despair, fear and lies about our own power. All too often we look outside ourselves for wisdom and courage.

Religion, Politics, Social Stigmas, and the all mighty THEY create identities for us, and we take no responsibility for the choice to simply roll over and accept status quo… Or do we? Is it better to be part of something, anything, than to truly be independent of crisis and drama within a group? I believe we are witness to a time of great upheaval, primarily with the awakening of our true nature, that of THE ONE… One mind with many voices, and an acceptance of the individual who has the courage to seek guidance from within before the without…

Is your wisdom and courage still asleep? Does it exist within you do you think? It is also my belief that what lies deep within the subconscious is the voice of THE ONE… which is YOUR VOICE… it is the voice of all of us, united for the elimination of the fear that has ruled this planet too long.

THE ONE is God, Christ Consciousness, Source, Universal or Galactic Consciousness… the voice of all of us.

My mentor said to me today that we are in it, that expected transition of 2012 is here right now, all around us. We are distracted by the apocalyptic visions, theories and fables surrounding that date, but honestly, have you looked around you lately? People are checking out instead of checking in. Loving families are being divided by political piousness and the Revelations of “others.” Media is driving frightening images and hopelessness where there needs to be hope. We have leaders at once asking for donations and support for nations in catastrophe, while condemning that nation to hell for its supposed crimes against God… Really?

Okay… Just to mention for clarity… This dimension, the 3rd, is the only place where polarity exists…’God’ and the Universe do not recognize the whole ‘good’ vs. ‘evil’ thing… it only happens here. Scary things happen, but so do miraculous things. The balance is always working to maintain, and sometimes it will suck and you’ll need to armor up just to make it through.

The balance is shifting, and we need to be awake, alive, BIG AND BRIGHT!!!!! Get ready to stand up and be a hero, laugh in the face of fear and LET YOUR DRAGON ROAR!!!!!!

Namaste,

~L

They say that grief is like a wave, one that ebbs and flows across miles of ocean, coming to crest and break over and over again. It is a process not unique to humans alone, but to all living things with conscience. For all of us, the loss of a loved one inevitably comes to this wave of emotion, but for those who did not get a chance to say goodbye it is especially painful.

So, how do we deal? How do we reconcile the guilt we might experience? “I should have…, if I’d only…, what if?” There is a point where the wave crashes, and stills, and you can become a whole person again. Here are a few ideas on how to cope.

First, try not to compartmentalize your emotions. Many people will try to help you “get over it”, especially by suggesting that “they are in a better place” and that “they would want you to go on.” Grief, like the wave, is different for everyone. You will feel better some days more than others. While we do have to go on without them, it doesn’t have to be an all or nothing situation. Find a time during the day where you focus on that person you’ve lost. First thing in the morning can be a good time, before your coffee and your shower.

Sit in a sunny spot, alone or with someone else who feels your loss or is grieving themselves. Quietly reflect on that person. If you are with someone else, share a story about that person. Just one, but one that creates a beautiful picture in your mind. Feel the life all around you, the sun, birds singing, children playing, even a dog barking. Soak up all of this and be grateful for your life, and the life of the person who is gone. Give this reflection about 20 minutes. Then go have an intentional shower. Visualize the water washing away your pain. You aren’t dishonoring the memory of the person you’ve lost; you are going through the process of going on.

Another suggestion sounds a bit more metaphysical, but can be very cathartic regardless of your belief structure. Try to understand that time is a human construct. That is, only we here on earth chart time by calendars and years. When we loose someone dear, we have helpful people who say things like “It was just their time.” This can be more of a blow than a comfort when we think the “If only” line. So, what if that person did not die, and were miraculously brought back to you, what would you say? The point here is that you are not out of time. When you are ready, try this exercise.

Find a quiet spot, one where you will not be disturbed by anyone, the phone or other distractions.

Sit comfortably on a pillow or chair, and direct yourself in a conversational position, that is, across from another pillow or chair. Begin to breathe in a meditative way, to relax and try to focus on the person we have lost, to the exclusion of all other things. Find a memory of a conversation where you laughed with this person, enjoying each others company. This can be especially helpful if the last time you saw them before they died was harsh or angry, and you are feeling guilty. Allow yourself to picture this person sitting across from you. Engage them, and allow them to be animated and alive in your mind. It’s alright to cry, and feel all the emotions of your grief. Chances are they know they are dead, and they want to comfort you. Begin to speak to them aloud. Don’t let the sound of your own voice disarm you. You are bridging that ingrained idea that death is final, and that your link to your loved one is severed. Talk about your day, your everyday life without them. Tell a funny story about a time when you were together, and talk about how much you miss them. If there is something to forgive, forgive them now… release them with love. If it is you who needs forgiveness, allow them to forgive you, and feel it when you ask for it. This is not a psychological game; instead really believe that you are communicating with a separate plane.

If you are not ready for that exercise, often times writing a letter can be another cathartic release of some deep emotions. Once again, give yourself a private space to commune with your feelings, and write down everything. When you are finished, read it aloud to the empty room. For many people, once they have read the letter, it is very freeing to burn or destroy the letter. This is symbolic of the birth/death process, and it a wonderful way to release your loved one.

Finally, there are some very tangible things you can do for your lost loved one. Think about something they were passionate about. Did they love the outdoors? If so, plant a tree, build a garden, or dedicate a park bench in their name. This will create a living memorial for your community to enjoy. Did they have a favorite cause? Contribute to that cause with a donation in their name. Carry on a tradition, like setting their place at family dinners, or inviting them aloud to a special occasion.

What is important here is that regardless of the timeliness of death, love never dies. If you did not have the opportunity to say goodbye, then don’t. Don’t ever say goodbye in terms of finality. It is important to forgive yourself for any remorse over missing their final moments. Work through your pain, and give yourself time. Instead of saying goodbye, say see you later, and bring that loved one’s memory back again and again, like a wave.

Light gives of itself freely, filling all available space. It does not seek anything in return; it asks not whether you are friend or foe. It gives of itself and is not thereby diminished. ~Michael Strassfeld

So, my first blog generated a few questions. Some great questions looking for answers, others to criticize in ways I didn’t expect. Questions like “Who do you think you are?” and “Why do you have the right to cross them over?” Some people think that the ghosts didn’t cross over because God doesn’t want them, and they are being punished…

Hopefully the following will explain a bit, and will answer those questions…

Spirit rescue or spirit release is the ultimate act of compassion. To be a beacon for the earthbound, to open the door for them to cross over is the embodiment of our humanness. Anyone can perform this act, anyone with an open mind and belief beyond this plane of existence. All over the world, we communicate with spirit everyday. Whether we believe in a God or not, we all pray to some higher power for everything from getting us to work on time to keeping us safe and alive. Spirit is everywhere, and we touch it everyday.

Ghosts on the other hand, earth-bound spirits, now that’s a whole other issue.

Not everyone becomes a ghost. Those that have crossed over can communicate with us in dreams, showing up in a party scene, or the guy at the deli counter. Suddenly you’re talking to your High School sweetheart who died years ago. We want to believe that the dead will have some kind of profound insight, a “message” from beyond. The reality is, most of the time they are just stopping by to say hello, I’m okay, and I love you. Love is the only motivation for this kind of communication. Everyone can have this kind of experience, and it will probably happen to everyone at least once in their lifetime. Communicating with a ghost can be troublesome, frightening and not everyone can do it. Ghosts are discarnate beings. That is, they inhabit the same plane of existence that we do (the 3rd dimension), only with out a body . They have not crossed over. They cannot talk because they don’t have voices anymore, and most of them are confused and upset. They are the same people they were when they had a body. Some have accepted their status, and take advantage of things, becoming pranksters and bullying the living because they are jealous and angry. Some of them don’t know they are dead. They go on, only seeing the life they knew or reliving the moments before their death. Other ghosts are fearful of judgment, based on years of religious conditioning. They might “see the light” upon dying, but reject it and run for fear of retribution. It is both my belief and my experience that God (what I recognize as Universal Consciousness or Source) is not judging these earthbound souls. Ghosts are not being punished, and earth is not purgatory.

Because we have free will, many ghosts choose to stay here. Many have that legendary “unfinished business” we have all heard of, but many more are simply unsure of what to do next, believing that there is something that needed to happen before they move on.

So how is it that we can help? Why does it take a living soul to help a dead one? Why can’t God simply intervene and help them? The answer goes back to free will, if they don’t ask for intervention, it can’t come. If they don’t know they are dead, or if they don’t know there is a choice, they won’t seek help to cross over. The living human brain is a conduit. We ask for help on their behalf, recognizing their predicament in death, that they are literally stuck between worlds. The human factor is that we have a body; we are given this body to “work things out,” to learn, reason, and gain consciousness through life experience. The earthbound spirits cannot work beyond this plane without a body. When we are sensitive to the presence of an earthbound soul, we can visualize for them, opening a portal or “the light” that is described in so many OBE’s and near-death experiences. Simply asking them if they see the light can allow the doorway to open for them. Typically, we cannot see the portal, but more often than not we can feel the pull of energy coming from that Source light as it opens.

My job is a facilitator, a way-shower for earthbound spirits. I find them (and somehow they find me too) and show them “The Light”. The light isn’t heaven; it is simply a passage to their next plane. I ask for help from the Ascended Master Jesus Christ and rescue angels to open the door for them, and what happens next is their path. Many of the ghosts I encounter just want to be shown the way. Others, like Lucinda, who I just crossed over this morning, want to hang out because they believe have something to do before they go.

Lucinda was quite frankly, a big pain. She followed me home from the Aquarium of all places, where she had been “hovering” around her daughter. She saw me, and somehow knew I could communicate with her. She and I worked for 2 days to try to “talk” to each other, primarily through EVP (electronic voice phenomena). She could hear me, and I could hear her through my digital recorder. We were both frustrated with this process, and she wanted me to tell her daughter that she loved her. That was the only thing holding her back. I explained to her that she could communicate so much better from the other side, that this could only be painful for her here. I also told her that it was probably her daughter’s belief that she was on the other side already, and with God. That seemed to comfort her a bit, and she left my house. She came back this morning, and I heard her, for the first time, without the need for my recorder. “Lauren” she said. “I’m ready to go now.” So, at 6:00 this morning, I opened the door for a grateful and satisfied “ghost”.

I have dreams too, where I “talk” to my grandmother, friends who have died, lots of people. It is quite different from dealing with a ghost. The most important thing to remember is that you should always practice safe communication, don’t just open to anyone or try to invoke a spirit. Don’t be afraid, ghosts are just people without bodies. Just talk to them, they will hear you, even if you don’t hear them. Say loving and compassionate things, tell them to find a way to the light, or open the door for them to cross over. Visualize that light, in any way that works for you. You will be performing an act of absolute love, even if you don’t know them. Set aside your questions and your ego. Your time is short and you should just enjoy living. Recognize that there are spirits all around us, and some of them just need a light in the dark to find their way home again.

Port-Au-Prince is gone. Since the destruction, the body count has become overwhelming, and the people of Haiti are surrounded by death and all its black embrace. If they escaped the initial quake, they are still subject to an incredible struggle to survive… but the body count will surely rise.

It isn’t that I wouldn’t go, its just that I can’t right now. It isn’t safe. The people, the survivors, are in crisis… and the dead are too.

As a light-worker I perform many tasks to assist on this plane and others. Some of us work on the planetary grid system, others work on the galactic front, and some, like me, assist in moving earthbound souls to their next path. When a world event strikes- a catastrophe like the Tsunami in Indonesia, Hurricane Katrina, and now the Quake in Haiti, light-workers go remotely to the areas to do the work necessary to heal the planet. We work primarily at night, while our bodies sleep, to consciously act as relief for those needs we cannot see or process in all the obvious destruction.

I have worked in areas of crisis before. The first was in Indonesia following the Tsunami, and it felt as though I was a red cross worker thrown into the front lines without any idea what to do first. I had spirits coming up to me in the streets; women, old men, children… I was completely unprepared for the level of work that needed to be done. I cannot imagine what it would be like to be in the midst of the death and devastation in person, and I have nothing but respect and gratitude for those who give so much to help in crisis. Over the course of 3 days, I worked all night, every night. Only when I began to get physically ill and drained of all my energy did I take a break. I would mentally direct my efforts to guide angelic teams to go to the area, help guide spirits out, and work to restore balance in the planes. I wasn’t the only one, of course. I saw many light-workers, directing and helping souls cross over, working with the grid systems, and dealing with some intense dark energy that will often take advantage of situations like these…

Which brings us back to Haiti.

While the country is primarily Roman Catholic, Haiti is a country steeped in the traditions of Haitian Vodou and all of the ritual and magic that accompany it. As a light-worker, I must have an understanding of the deities that work in those traditions, and approach to assist with extreme caution and respect for the practitioners as well as those deities.

In the earliest days of a catastrophe like this, there are energies who come to feed on the fear and trauma that has fallen over the country. Like blood in the water, these energies are drawn to those frequencies with a ferocious appetite. The do not appreciate someone like me going in to help restore balance to the dead, and see them at peace. I have to be prepared for them, ready to fight as well as help.

In the end, there are always some who remain. At best, they want to watch over their families, at worst, they don’t know they are dead. Those are the hardest to help because often they can’t see me when I go remote. To them, I am the ghost and they are scared of me. There will be many  left in Haiti, just like New Orleans and Indonesia before it. A news link I found describes this phenomena, though it isn’t part of post-traumatic stress. We are witness to a time where seeing ghosts is not so unusual, and in the event, how could you not expect to?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/asia-pacific/4202457.stm

On a global consciousness level, it is my hope that whomever reads this will take a moment and be aware of those souls who are wandering the devastation of Port-Au-Prince. Regardless of your religious beliefs, send the Archangel Michael, and rescue angels to help them find their way to the light. Visualize clear light, no polarity, only a door to see them home again. Don’t add your fears, but be at peace. I’ll go soon, but not tonight.

Its still a little too dark and I want to be brighter…

Namaste,

~L